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Hey all! :D

I am indeed still of this world, just to keep you in the loop ;) I'm definitely improving health/energy-wise and moodwise, even though I've also been diagnosed with hypothyroidism! (Hashimoto's thyroiditis, which is possibly one of the nicest autoimmune disorders out there, if it can be called such a thing.) So I had basically cornered the market in "illnesses that make you tired and sad", which explains a few things. xD

I might try to just chuck up the last few arts from the last few years I've been AFK, rather than worrying about it, and try to make this lil place a nice spot for me to be again rather than stressful (my own doing lmfao) C:

If you're around, let me know how you've been! I can't promise lengthy and brainful replies, but I am interested! <3
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I'm really sorry I've dropped off-radar for a lot of people - I've been diagnosed with a fairly bad B12 deficiency (which has been going on for an unknown but likely large number of years, not to mention the depression, which it probably made worse), so I've been a bit like...well, imagine a piece of toast dropped butter-side-down on the floor. In fact I'm only managing to chuck this out here because thanks to far more injections than was originally predicted (and there will be many more), I've been feeling a bit more energetic in the past few days.

Investigations are ongoing, as is cake-eating and puppy-cuddling. Thankfully not getting those two mixed up. Love to everyone! ♥




Wow, heh, been a while since I updated my journal. A year and a half who said that. |D Basically, the plan didn't go to...well, plan, but the final goal's still the same. c: Things got a looot worse, but now they are getting (very) slowly but surely better; there's a whole world of crap to dig out, but luckily I have an industrial-grade digger. c: It's just very...tiring.

Also I'm a horrible hermit because this all makes it really difficult to have the energy to talk to people and then I feel guilty for not talking to people and this makes it more difficult to talk to them. *Breathe* SO I'M SORRY I HAVEN'T TALKED TO ANY OF YOU LOVELY PEOPLE. :cries: I STILL LOVE YOU ALL. But my brain does not love me - or if it does, it does so very briefly, which is not long enough to get anything done.

But I am actually going to upload some things. Shock, I know. Some old, some less old, some less old with new revisions? :'D

TL;DR: Depression was worsened by a bunch of shit, getting proper psychotherapy, on the mend, still very splatted. Art soon. Love you all. ♥

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A new name, a new home...and a stable full of new horses to meet.

Oh no wait, that's Black Beauty. Lemme start again. Gotta get that old journal off my front page.

I did change my username though, since I'd been meaning to since like forever. Thanks to my Big Stupid Name, it's strange enough that I've been mostly able to snag it across the board. C: I'll keep links and whatnot down in my ID, but for instance I now have a Tumblr, which is probably where I'll splat sketches and things. Also fantarding and reblogging of various levels of asininity, you have been warned. And I have been uploading things here, too. I did do art in my long absence, you see, though not very much and a lot of it was ponies. But due to some terrible combination of Stuff and Guilt, I never did anything with it here. But now, because I'm a massive, awful completionist I shall be gradually putting up the things that I still like despite their great age, then getting back to normal operations. Shocking, I know. c:

In terms of Life News, I'm now doing an extended diploma in Animal Management.



Yes, considering I did computer animation at uni it's a bit hoobadoobawhatnow. xD But there's a long story involving a fox, and I'm going to break my silly superstition about not talking about my hopes and say that hopefully when I've finished the two years I will have what's needed to apply to the RSPCA Inspectorate. Wish me luck. C:< So I guess that Black Beauty quote was more relevant than I thought.



And of course, as predicted, it's been a bit of a while since I last updated my journal. I could go all deep and whatnot, but these two comics sum things up quite accurately for something that can only ever be an approximation of a personal experience - and as anyone who also knows from their own personal experience will have had their own differences. Deep and unending thanks to everyone who saw my proverbial dead fish and still liked me. I cannot appreciate it enough. ♥ Of course elements of it survive, and nobody ever stays the same as they go through life in general, but I'm no longer There, which is obnoxiously and hysterically good.

Now, on a happier note, I fed five kittens milk from a syringe twice yesterday. Eeeeeeeee. ♥ What have you patient people all been up to? :3

Also here is an unrelated picture of squirrel babies.



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Hey everyone still here!

...*Crickets chirp*... xD

But no seriously, I am sorry, once again for disappearing on you all. I've let a lot of lovely people fall completely off-radar, and not just on dA. I won't really go into it, because it hasn't stopped, but essentially my plan to come home after uni, have a rest and regroup, then get a job, went wrong.



Like, laughably wrong. This pretty much sums it up.


And now I'm sort of gradually working the courage back up to talk to everybody again who I've neglected, only it's really not going well because I'm a giant moron. xD So here's a little shout out to everyone still around that I'm not dead, that I'm really sorry, and that I can't actually promise any sort of speedy return to normal apocalypsebunny operation like I have in the past (and failed to stick to anyway), but I'm working on it. And please don't think I'm fishing for anything at all - I quite literally just wanted to wave at you all and say where the buggery I'd been. xD



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EDIT: Just saw X-Men again.



And I'm listening to the sub lift music and OH GOD THE AWESOME JUST KEEPS ON GOING OH GOD.
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With the AST exam and the accompanying 3 solid hours of writing about trivariate tensor product spline deformation volume chunk functions etc, skeleton systems and textures etc etc ad infinitum out of the way, it was TIME TO PARTY!

And so we played RobinF's Pokemon RPG for the evening. >3>

And then there were other days involving SHIRE HORSES, PONY RIDING and general awesome involving in no particular order quixoticheartsong, RobinF, RainbowFountains and Skylarkien. This also included X-Men: First Class. HOMG. I DON'T EVEN. HOW DO I. I WAS NOT EXPECTING THAT. I went into the cinema, expecting a bit of fun but nothing special (I mean remember the trailer). AND THEN I SPECTACULARLY ENJOYED EVERY MINUTE OF IT. The plot was not high-brow; never dreamed of that. BUT IT WAS GOOD. But it had to be said, it was more like OGLE XAVIER, OGLE MAGNETO, OGLE XAVIER AND MAGNETO OH MY GOD WILL THEY JUST BLOODY WELL KISS ALREADY, OGLE MYSTIQUE, OGLE EFFECTS oh yeah Cuban missile crisis, Cold War OGLE UNIFORMS huh, missiles OGLE OGLE OGLE.

If the actors themselves ship Xavier/Magneto, who am I to argue.

And now X-Training is my current overplay, along with Love, Love from the end credits. MY HEART. JEEZ. It is clearly about them. Expect fanart. I went looking for fanfic and thought there might be a comm by now, and then I found 2 comms, 2 kinkmemes, a Delicious archive, and about 4 tumblrs. I AM HAPPY. THANK YOU INTERNET.

And RobinF and I went and saw a production of Rosencranz and Guildenstern Are Dead. Fan-bloody-tastic, stupendous acting and gorgeous sets. Guildenstern was hilariously charismatic and Rosencranz was camper than a row of tents. The player was a genius. I'm glad I'd already seen the movie (directed by Tom Stoppard himself) and got all the "wtf is going on" out of the way then, so I could enjoy it to its fullest - and it was interesting to compare the portrayals. In the movie, R&G are very balanced: it might help that they have similar builds and heights - and Rosencranz is even a little larger visually despite having the less philosophical dialogue - but the delivery of the lines is much more equal back and forth. In the production we saw, it was quite biased towards Guildenstern being the thinker of high concepts and Rosencranz being more of a practical, less experienced man. It worked, but it was an interesting difference. >3> AND YES, MUCH SLASH. Expect fanart. Possibly in a barrel.

And there was the BACVA (uni) leaving do. SO MUCH FUN. Everyone was dressed up and looked fantabulous, there were helium balloons and much hilarious dancing, and many incriminating photos were taken by all.

And then we had a smaller leaving dinner (to which quixoticheartsong and I brought RobinF entirely unaware, and much trolling was done) at TGI Fridays, which was glorious.

And soon I shall actually have the time to answer the internet. Remember, this is making up for an entire year of not socialising. xD

O O O O O O O O O O



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